for every hand extended another lies in wait

if there's anything i've learned all these years on my own it's how to find my own way there and how to find my own way back home

Being in the hospital kinda fucked up my posting groove. Oops. Someone hit the reset button on my life any ways, the hiatus was cleansing for the sake of the blog I guess.

Where to even start? For starters my back still blows, potentially (probably) it was the catalyst for everything that happened next. Camp started without any real hitch aside from breaking my thumb which was drama but that's not what this is about. Bad back, broken thumb, and then I stopped getting paid.. not suddenly, it was so gradual I didn't notice until suddenly my checks where 236$ for 7days a week work. At that point I guess I snapped. I talked to my Dad who is a VP at Blank Blank Ins. and he got me an interview which I nailed and landed a job as an underwriters assistant on track for finishing my degree (finally) and becoming an Underwriter... even outside of that there is an incredible amount of opportunity for promotion, it's a grade higher than the position my dad started with when he was my age and he does quite well. Anyways... I took the job, I quit the gym and the camp and the horses and... I packed my shit and moved back home. So starts the next chapter I'll call "J get's her shit together"

I moved the horses home, Airy is at HV, Jovie, Daphne & Dexter are in Little Mexico... YES JOVIE IS BACK!!!! I live home with my parents again, they just helped me pay off all of my debt so that I could pass the credit check for my job and I'll be paying them off for the rest of forever... I decided to get a head start on it and pay them in huge sums and just live at home. I'm 25, I have shit to do other than pay my parents back. Also, I hate owing them money.

H moved in with R (FINALLY SHE'S HERE) and it's so nice being only 30 minutes away instead of hours. I wish I was more enthusiastic about moving in with her now- it would make sense.. but I'm not. I DO want to live with her, my god I have all these plans... I just think you shouldn't move in with someone until you've been together a year.. AND when I move in with her, I want US to move into OUR place, not me move in with her in R. I like R lots, I think he's the coolest gay boy around but this thing with them living together, that's for them, they've planned it since they where tot's from what it sounds like and I'm not in any mood to be the asshole girlfriend who got in the way.

So, that's where we are on that. I love the crap out of her, I can't wait until we live together, except I can.. because I'd rather us be together for ever than live together now.

No one person has ever made me happier...